nikhak

Dear Anonymous,

Thanks for the kind words. My mom and others have been going out of there way to tell me how proud my dad must be of me and how proud they are of me too.  I think it’s really important to hear it at a time like this.

I don’t want to make anyone sad. Some times it’s just easy for me to run to Tumblr and write something about my dad or post a photo of him or that reminds me of him. Writing in a journal is one thing but sharing with others is another… my dad was a warm spirited man and was always sharing and caring with others. 

In all honesty, I think other than watching what my mom go what she’s going through, knowing that my dad was an awesome dude is what makes it so difficult. I’m sure a lot of people would say that about their mom or dad but now that I’ve had time to sit back and reflect, I am 100% sure of it. I didn’t know what heartbreak was until we lost him.

Surprisingly, I am doing so much better than I could have ever imagined. I have awesome people around me in almost every aspect of my life (even Tumblr!), and I’ve been keeping busy like crazy. I’ve created multiple other Tumblrs to pass the time, I blog, we’re working on this memorial game day event for my dad, playing soccer, watching soccer, working… so on and so forth.  All I really want to do is lead a life my dad would be proud of and to share his spirit because I think he probably had a little bit more spunk than me. So maybe instead of playing on the internet I should finish up applying to grad school, eh? :)

Sorry this was sort of long winded.